| | I really do believe that one of the devil's best tool is
busyness. Why do I even bother with it sometimes? All I know is
that when I'm busy, I rush and that is also one of the devil's favorite
tools. He makes me busy and then I rush and then I hurry and inside my
stomach and heart gets very annoyed and then I feel like I'm too tired
to deal with anyone.
I've been rushing... writing as fast I can in my journal, just because
I feel like I dont' have time. In fact, I am even typing my xanga entry
as quickly as I can... who knows why. It's an addiction I think. I've
been rushing when I'm cleaning, shortening my quiet times and my sleep
and rushing as if I have one of the most important roles in the world,
as if what I do is the most important. Now I know why one of the
ten commandments is to keep the sabbath day holy. God knows that
we will run into the sin of busyness and forget what is important. He
knows we'll lose control, freak out and burn out and then forget
him. When we're busy, we know God takes too much time so we just
set his book on the side or flip through it or read lines hoping that
the two minutes we read a verse will help us the rest of the day.
Yesterday I did not want to read my bible but I knew I needed
rest. Edginess, that's what happens when you are too busy.
I think my new goal is to not be busy to just leave time for rest.
Anyways, I decided if I can't read the bible I'd read the Oprah
magazine/book that a friend lent me. I ended up reading an article by
Kathleen Norris, a Christian writer, about how sleep can be one of the
most spiritual things that we can receive from God. It's a sign
that we give up control to God. It's rest.
Aside from this lesson I'm learning, I also realized that throughout
our lives we just keep learning the same lesson over and over. I
realized that I've been reading the same things in books, hearing the
same things in sermons, it's just that God rewords it all or has
another voice share the same thing with us until it really sinks
in. I figure I had better listen this time around or else it'll
come back to me eventually.
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